I Am Not A Writer

How would I start? Where should I begin? What should I write?.These are just few of the questions I constantly ask every time I try to write something. I really don't have any idea what to post here in my blog.

I have started creating this account 3 years ago and was only able to write four words which says "I miss my boyfriend". As you can read in my first blog, that is the proof of my indolence to write. I never have the passion for writing stories and articles but hey! I love writing on my diary when I was still in High School and I stopped writing when I reached my sophomore year in college. But now, here I am trying to share my own story but I don't even know what to share. I really don't know what to write,I don't know what to say and I don't even know how to start and I can't think of any topic. I am always not in the mood to write. But every time I would attempt to write a story, brilliant ideas would suddenly come out from my mind but if I try to start writing, my mind goes blank, my magnificent thoughts would suddenly vanish. All I know, I really want to write something and I'm trying..trying to be a writer. But how can I? I always run out of ideas to share.

Well, I'm a blogger-lover. I love reading others blogs and I envy them because they were able to write and publish their own stories. I admire them for being able to write something interesting about anything. I could really say they have got the talent in writing. And how about me? I have tried so may times trying to post my own life story but I would always end up writing 4-5 sentences then after, I'd stopped writing because I don't have any idea how to make my work interesting.

If you were to ask me this question "tell me about yourself", Hmmmm, expect me to answer "I'm simple" that's it!

It's really strange, describing myself scares me a lot hikhik.

I hate being asked to answer this one coz I don't know what to tell, it's not that I don't know about myself but I just really can't say anything that I sometimes end up copying someone else' descriptions in their profile which is similar to my personality too. Sssshhhh(",), it's called plagiarism, the act of plagiarizing; taking someone's words or ideas as if they were your own, shame on me!hahaha Now you know, don't hate me for being one of those cheaters out there but that was before, and not now anymore.=)I am now a "cheater-hater".

Now, how can I write something interesting here when I can't even describe my own self.

When I was still in Elementary, I really couldn't remember anymore what I've written in my formal theme book when asked to write "Who Am I?" . Yeah, I love writing when I was still young. I was even praised by my friends with good penmanship and in fact, I was awarded with "Best in Writing" and was always elected as the secretary in our class for my good handwriting,I am so proud with these things.At least even in my handwriting I was been recognized. Heelllleerrr? don't worry, it has nothing to do with my writing skills. It was just more on how good I am in using my pencil though, it was only about my beautiful writing, penmanship "only" I repeat LOL.

During my High School days

you will never believe that

I was one of the writers in our school paper. I was assigned in the poem section so I have only contributed poems. I wasn't able to publish stories or anything just merely a poem. Should I say, I am a great poet (ewww! yuck!) and I don't deserve to be called a writer so sad =( which is the truth right? coz I was never a writer unless I am able to publish my own masterpiece, my story. How funny! hehehe. When will that be? I hope soon.. (no idea).

Seriously, I have always wanted to write stories that can inspire the readers, motivate people to do more, persuade them to have a positive outlook in life, influence them to be optimistic, I want to touch their emotions too.

I want the readers to

smile and let them feel that life is beautiful,that there is something to look forward to, something like that, isn't it nice?

They say we are the author of our own life story. Yes, definitely but I still can't write about my own beautiful life story and I wish someday I could. Actually there's nothing terrific about me, I mean my life. Believe me, it's all about nightmares wooohhh! I'm just joking(",).Smile dude! don't be too serious=). That's it! so let's continue, I think it's really complicated to narrate the happenings in my life because there's nothing really special to disclose and nothing inspirational. Sure, it's gonna be boring to read, not a blockbuster one I mean it wouldn't become a bestseller hahaha!(stop dreaming Daffny). Actually, those are just some of my excuses coz the real reason is

I am not a writer (this is what I always think).I'm not trying to be pessimistic here.

"I am not a writer", for me it means I don't know how to make my story interesting, don't know how to finish and I'm only just good in the beginning and no ending, just always an introduction, so worst, isn't it? It's really unacceptable for someone like me to become a writer who doesn't even know how to end up a story and doesn't even know what she's writing about. So who would appreciate a story with only an introduction? Nobody, wouldn't you? hahaha! it's like buying a special pizza without toppings, nothing more but a plain bread LOL

(but I actually like bread, but I love pizza more).

Then if that's the case it cannot be considered a pizza any longer only a bread shaped and sliced into a pizza. It's then up to you on how you would make it taste like a pizza. You can put ketchup, cheese, hot dogs by yourself. Lastly, if you have an oven, the story is finish, you can now have the pizza with you and you can deliciously serve it,

a finish product.

It is somewhat like a story ready to be published. Do you get my point? I'll explain to you later for you to finish reading this. Isn't it weird? Just like me? oh no! I'm not weird, what I'm stressing out is I'm always attempting to write a story with nothing to say, so there's no story at all. I am just like a plain bread, not a pizza. I wanted to be a pizza with toppings, but I am just a bread. My ideas are not so cheesy, not as tasty as hot dogs and not as yummy as the ketchup (hot sauce?). I am a frustrated writer =( I think I'd just better eat bread alone.)

..Oopps! am I writing a story already? I'm not sure..I'm just writing anything here, sharing something. I don't know how to end this one, I hope you comprehend coz I am not a writer. If you didn't enjoy reading this, forgive me..See, I told you from the beginning and from the title itself, I guess you've understood already what I'm trying to say (that was smart of you!)coz I don't want to repeat the phrase again. And to you, yes you! who took the time to continue reading this,who seems to appreciate my work and finds it interesting thanks for reading. Actually, I am not a good writer and I am not good as others. Hhmmmppp, am I considering myself now as a writer for reasoning out that I'm not good,not effective? Wow! this is incredible! Oh no! I think I have to continue and end this story with joy in my heart and twinkle in my eyes (exaggerated?, oh yeah!). Again, did I say story? did I mention I can end this story? I can't believe it, I'm now saying things contrary to what I consider I won't become. Don't stop me from this illusion of mine coz I'm gonna publish this one, my first ever long paragraph- making hahaha..I may not be a writer, atleast I'm going to be a blogger. Congrats to me! clap! clap! clap! Give me around of

applause! cheers! Go go Daffny, you can make it!(",)

Sometimes, it's really good to praise your own work and achievements. Acknowledge and recognize what you've done

. It motivates us to do more, now I'm motivated to end this story. Let's just be positive that things can be done and believe in your own abilities and capabilities, believe that there's something you can do. Don't just sit in one corner and do nothing but complain, try and keep on believing.Don't think less of yourself. There's so much room for opportunities.

As for me, I believe that I will be better soon. Right now, I'm glad that I have something to post in my own blog, which I can call my own work.Finally, I can already consider myself as an official blogger (",)Yeah right! enough with this thingy, I'm so excited now to publish this so let me end this one with a phrase "I am not a writer but I am now a blogger" ..(",)

->Daffabulous